1/18/10

Hey; haven't written on here in a while. Been pretty busy lately. it started snowing here again today. i wouldn't mind it so much if there wasn't ice underneath it. on my way home from work i slipped and fell. now my hips are killing me lol. i tried to make a blog today dedicated solely to amazing websites and links; but i couldn't figure out how to make it work. sorry pplz. i start school tomorrow. I'm pretty excited. 3 out of 4 of my classes are early in the morning. idk wtf i was thinking to sign up for them that early lol. but now i will only be able to work 2 days out of the week now. well that is to do lunch; idk they may need me to do other things as well. who knows with them. anyway. not sure if i have mentioned this before; but i am now in the culinary arts program. I'm still having my confusions and frustrations with the opposite sex. its not negative necessarily, but it is confusing. Daniel scott finally found closure with his ex, and i have been here giving support and trying to be a good friend. i think I've been doing a good job so far. I'm not totally sure though. hes a little strange; which i love, but because of that i don't know what to do with him. see, he knows i really like him, and he knows that i havent had much experience with guys who don't just want to get into my pants. I suppose what I'm confused about is what he wants from me. or even if he does want something from me. does he just want to be friends? i mean, after we've made out several times and have cuddled, that seems a little bit more than friends; but yet he keeps saying he doesn't want that. so what exactly am i supposed to do? i know what i want but he doesn't seem to be wanting that. hes had a really hard time this past week. he brought the rest of his ex gf's stuff back down, and finally had some closure i guess. idk. i wish he did. its so strange though; he drives me crazy! and i can tell i at least turn him on a little; Ive gotten him pretty hard a few times. but I'm not sure; i guess ill just keep trying to be patient. its not like there are any other guys I'm interested in at the moment. but I'm excited for Friday. he is going over to the college to get some stuff done, than is coming over to my house. Hopefully. his plans have changed before. i really hope they don't this time though. supposedly he is coming over and were gonna order a pizza or something, and cuddle and watch movies. initially we were going to do this shirtless; but he doesn't think he could control himself; and personally i don't think i could either. i suppose we will just have to wait and see what happens. Wish me luck!

December 29, 2009. First Blog.

Ello. I just got the idea to make myself a place where i could blog, and get what I'm thinking and feeling out because at the moment; i don't really have someone i can do that with, and there is a lot going on at the moment. for one i know my page looks like shit, I'm working on that. not entirely sure how to make everything work right quite yet, just kind of messing around with it and i suppose we will see what happens. at the moment i am fighting off a cold and feel like SHIT. I'm sure i will feel better once i can breathe. so far i have missed 2 days of work and if i still don't feel good tomorrow i suppose i will just not bother going in this week. Had a good Christmas, and hopefully a good new year as well. not planning on doing anything special. were supposed to be getting a big storm here soon. supposed to go for like 4 days. there were ppl on the TV joking it will be the storm of the decade. cheesy i know. i go back to school on Jan. 19th. I'm pretty excited. i got accepted into the culinary arts program. i love to cook. especially things that aren't so good for you lol. at the moment i am watching ghost hunters thinking about a conversation i recently had with one of my friends. a male friend. why do guys have to be so complicated? i wish they could just make up they re minds. all though, i will give this one credit for he is the first who hasn't tried to get into my pants. at the moment I'm trying to just be the patient friend but i don't think I'm doing a very good job at it.